My Birthday

i am turning nineteen



i dont think anyone cares



so do what you want



i wanted to go away



but when i suggested it no one wanted to go.



so go away do your house party



i'll do what ever.



i dont expect many of you there.

C-c-c-changes

Everything changes

as i learnt in School change is inevitable!

but what we can control is if it becomes a change for the better or a change for the worse.

You have control over this even if it is the slightest amount

we have control over the changes in our society

by who we vote for

we can elect who will control the changes in our society

We can also control the changes we make to our own lifes

and our personailties, our friends, jobs and sometimes even families.

You can not blame others for these things

you helped control and make the changes

so you take responsibility

ignore me

Ignore me!!!

That's what it feels like you do anyway.

I'm not the cutesy girl.

I'm not really one of the boys.

I won't act like your the greatest thing in the world

like the other girls do.

But i try.

And it goes unnoticed.

I feel like you ignore me.

Is everything i say unimportant

is it not your job as a friend to listen to me

like I do you.

How is it fair?

I do anything for my friends.

And I just feel like they don't do the same.

grrr

hates everything

loves gigs and concerts after the weekend though

gross stuff

like love and commitment.

okay so its recently come to my attention i'm a massive

commitmentphobe

i need help

i have the wonderful boyfriend and

last night i purposely tried to screw it up

i dont know why.

i really do like him.

and i dont want to hurt him.

needs methods to stop this.

wonder if there is websites lol

and just to rub it in

he loveeeeeeeeeeees me lol cause he'll read this.

new blog

lol i'm not much of a blogger and prolly should be ignored.

except omg silverchair and powderfinger were pretty damn awesome last night

♥ for jimmy barnes also.

for sweetcheeks lol <3


bye kidss